It’s summer break for chrissakes. I want my summer break!
It's two weeks into summer break and we are just now, within the last few days, actually getting to the break part. Drawing the line.
While others may be floating in a pool somewhere, drink in hand, delighting in a colorful scenic vista with friends and family near to them... we’re up debating and strategizing, holding emergency meetings, writing letters to district superiors, orchestrating a mass-signature gathering campaign, going to mandatory mind-numbing neighborhood council board meetings, all on behalf of the little school...while others, perhaps even some of you are off floating, drinking, relaxing, bbqing, you know, enjoying your summer break!
When did it all get so all-encompassing?
I used to quip "sleep's for pussies!" or "I'll sleep when I'm dead!"
But lately and not so cavalierly, after years of chronic sleep deprivation combined with an over-arching take-care-of-everything attitude, I realize sleep's for me! I need to sleep or I'll BE dead!
I went to the doctor recently with a full menu of bodily concerns: recurring nosebleeds, debilitating physical exhaustion--not just the I'm so tired sensation, but the I-will-fall-to-the-floor-right-now-if-I-don't-lie-down kind of in my bones exhaustion-- migraines, and more recently, heart palpitations, never mind the annoyances of low-to-no sex drive and intermittent nausea.
OK. I get it. I'll go float in a pool somewhere.
But then someone else is going to have to take care of all this, she said, waving her hand in the general direction of the mountain of life surrounding her…the bills, the deadlines, the expectations, the issues, the repairs, the mess, the muck, the myriad of mire….
Responsibilities like so many strips of paper swirl through the air and free-fall to the ground.
Surrendered and airborne, she realizes she has absolutely no idea what she's supposed to be doing right now. Or how to do it.
Mainly, things have got to change.
Mainly, I'm taking a break.
Too much going out. Nothing coming in.
Been that way for far too long.
I surrender!
3 comments:
Good for you! I fully support your full surrender! : )
Go lie down.
Ask someone to float a paper umbrella on a pastel cocktail and bring it to you.
All those strips of paper will dangle long enough for you to rest a while. It's important, T. Just as important as all the other things you're doing.
In fact, if you don't rest once in a while, you won't be able to keep doing all those wonderful, important things.
Light and love to you. Light and love.
Hey thanks for the commment!
Nice to hear from you!
Sounds like you need a loonnnnnnggg
vacation!
Try and surrender and enjoy it!
Take care...
Suzy
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